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minikest1980
You know that feeling you have durring the high point of an adrenaline rush...the what the heck am i doing type feeling. I had a total flash back...I grabbed my knife then i was like...wait...and now...idk...not sure if its worth the time of day...



ten mins later: feel horribler...fml...
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X<3X
minikest1980
tired eyes
all the memories of something bettter
I've made more sense
when they all where still together
she cant hide
when her world comes falling down
little girl hold on when the world confuses u
little girl be strong it'll make sense someday soon
hold on to what u know to be true
times bring change not the kind she always hoped would happen
wanted to blame
at the same time everything to question
days go bye
and her keeps falling down
in her mind
she cant reconsider fact and fiction
little girl hold on when the world confuses u
it will make sense someday soon
so if u hold on little girl just hold on
hold on
little girl hold on

lookin' for a hero
minikest1980

Just Six months ago everything was fine, or so it seemed. Now i dont remember what it is even like to go a day with out something bad happening. I don't remember a day with out fighting and screaming. If there was a day of rest and peace, I wouldn't know what to do. I have grown used to this life, but I don't know is that is a good thing or a horrible thing to say. Jen, Colin, Jack, Christinia, Papa, Grandma, now all this drama. I am still only one kid, not even old enough to walk to CVS to get a soda. Why all this happens to me, I will never know. Maybe I did something wrong, maybe i really am invisible. I'm beggin' for some help now on my hands and knee's i need someone to save me from all this. I need a hero.

Hiaya
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rrickkestt,
Well now he's being very weird, I don't get it, its not makeing sence to me. Call me ok.
Love,
Julimarie

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rrickkestt,
Thanks for reminding me to bring my guitar. Its so far just boring. I talked to Frankie before in the car, he said he might work on that for me! yay! Right now i'm just in my room chilling, becase he's not home yet. Oddly, on the way here he didn't say anything. I asked him why he wanted me to come and he just said you'll see and gave me his nice smile. When I asked him how long he didn't say anything he just turned up his music. Well, my foot fell asleep so imma gonna go now, bye ily bro!
Love,
Julimarie

mhm mhm
minikest1980
Somebody cries in the middle of the night,
The neighbors hear but they turn out the lights;
A fragile soul caught in the hands of fate,
When morning comes it will be too late.

Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above;
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.

Concrete Angel

A statue stands in a shaded place,
An angel girl with an upturned face;
Her name is written on a polished rock,
A broken heart that the world forgot.

Through the wind and the rain,
She stands hard as a stone in a world that she can't rise above;
But her dreams give her wings and she flies to a place where she's loved.

........
minikest1980
Do anyone know
How I feel?
Feeling so alone
And so empty
My eyes are blank and my smile is fake
You can't just read me
You just have to know me
The tears that escape me
As I remember all the things
That went wrong
Or what it could of been like
On the outside I smile
On the inside I feel so dead to the world
Like I'm invisible
Not worth knowing
Useless and pointless
I lay awake for hours on end
Wishing everything away
I ask god
Why me?
Why do I have to suffer
For someone else's stupidity
God
What am I to you?
Someone you can toy around with
Someone you can hurt?
Well guess what god
I'm done!
I just want to disappear
And cry
Like spurting blood
Why is it I can bleed to death
But I can't cry to death?
I'm trying so hard
To gain control
Over what was once mine
My life
I feel like I don't matter
I feel like I'm better off dead
Better off not existing
Better off without love...

<3
minikest1980
He drops his suitcase by the door
She knows her daddy won't be back anymore
She drags her feet across the floor
Try and hold back time to keep him holding on
And she says

Daddy Daddy don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't you see how much I need you
Daddy Daddy don't leave
Mommy's saying things she don't mean
She don't know what she's talking about
Somebody hear me out
Father listen
Tell him that he's got a home and he don't have to go
Father save him
I would do anything in return
I'll clean my room
Try hard in school
I'll be good
I promise you
Now she hasn't slept in weeks
She don't want to close her eyes cause she's scared that he'll leave
They tried just about everything
It's getting harder now
For her to breathe

Daddy Daddy don't leave
I'll do anything to keep you
Right here with me
Can't you see how much I need you
Daddy Daddy don't leave
They are saying things they told me
They don't know what they talking about
Somebody hear me out
There open his eyes
There ain't no more time
To tell him that I love him more
The many thing in the world
Is Daddy's little girl

And she says
Father, Father
She was Daddy's Little Girl <3

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