This is what my friends boyfriend makes me think about me self...The "she" is her ily girl
minikest1980
She is happy, I'm sad
She has friends, shes popular
I'm not
People understand her,
No one understands me
She feels happiness and love,
I feel pain and sadness,
She doesn't cry,
I cry all the time
Its become natural
She will always have someone to love,
I never will know the truth about "love"
She is pretty in pink,
With expensive clothes from stores in NYC
I'm dark and black with torn up hand me downs
She is warm inside
I'm freezing from the core
She doesn't bleed tears,
I do everyday
Her heart is red lined with love,
Mine is the darkest black filled up with hate
she doesn't have emotions,
I have emotions
Her emotions don't run her life
My emotions ruin mine.

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minikest1980
wtf
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DAMN IT! WTF DID I JUST DO!
minikest1980
I SAID IDC! WTF I DO CARE A FUCK LOT! NO NO NO NOW EVERYTHING FOR MY "PERFECT DAY" WILL BE RUINED! UGH! IM SUCH A RETARD!

I hate being a teen it's so confuseing
minikest1980
WTF! How can i still be in love with him. He's gone, i said i was done with him. Well...I guess i was just lying o myself, apperently i still got those fuzzy little feelings every time I see his smile. When he says hi my face i start blushing alot. Well, he's my X i just gotta force myself to get over it i mean he said it himself  he can't pictre me being his girl. Well what ever i mean i'll get over it.


Shout outs:)
ALIANA MAGNOTTA!- You were right no guy is perfect, they are like shrimp am i right! lol ily cuzie!
MICKIEBOOBOOMCCUTIEQ!~ Ok, now i know how you felt about Orlando ='[ text me sissy!

*sigh*
minikest1980
Time is wasted day after day.
I sit with people I don't understand people I don't belong with.
As I look at the people I do belong with I am intimidated.
I feel as though there is a line that I can never cross
separating me from them.
I will never tell anyone how I feel.
I am an impenetrable brick wall.
But, I will always long to be on the other side.

...damn
minikest1980
                                       ...........damn it..............

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minikest1980
Lord, you take so many people out of my live...why not mine? what can i possibly be doing right?

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minikest1980
my head is messed up,
like my brothers room,
life is so confusing,
I feel doomed,
my parents thinks its amusing,
to play with my mind,
always wanting to find,
someone I can talk to,
a person who will help,
me choose the right choices
but my parents try to speak to me,
I just sit there silently,
listening to voices turn to,
turn to drowned out noises,
and everytime someone asks,
if I'm ok I just look towards them,
and smile and an hold my feeling
deep inside

i'm scareing myself...alot
minikest1980
I wrote this over the summer and i just found it in a box under my bed. I think the last few words are very true. leave comments (nice ones please)


Sometimes I cut myself
Just to feel the pain
Then I hide my scars
Because of all the shame
The pain is awful
I do it just to feel
Sometimes I have to make sure
Everything's still real
My life has been bad
I do it to forget
I cut my arms
Then I cry as I sit
Alone in my room
Hoping for someone
To save me from this
So I can finally say I've won
I want to quit this habit
But I still reach for the blade
I cry out in pain
My arm turns that familiar red shade
I get that adrenalin rush
The blood runs over my hand
I hear someone coming
So I attempt to stand
My legs feel weak
And I fall to the ground
I've done it again
I don't hear another sound...
I wake up two days later
In a hospital bed
I feel like Hell
There's a pounding in my head
First time in seven months
I haven't been high
I breathe in deeply
And let out a sigh
Withdrawals hurt like a bitch
But it feels good
It's going to be hard
But I know I should
I'm not only hurting myself
I'm hurting others too
I have to stop this shit
I need to become someone new

There's always that guy<3
minikest1980
http://fc02.deviantart.net/fs19/f/2007/276/4/3/037_Magnet_Cling_by_azuzephre.png 

Terry that link is for you! ^^ ily!

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